I've never been really good at asking for help. I'm independent and don't really like relying on others. I never want to feel like a burden or come off as needy.
I have carried this habit into my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I know I should feel comfortable just asking for things, but I'm not. I think I see God as someone who's so good and so loving, yet I can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that he wants to give me the things I want. I've always carried around the idea that if I have my quiet time, go to church, and actively live a life that pleases Christ, then he'll just bless me with the desires of my heart.
"May he grant you your heart's desire and fulfill all of your plans!" Psalm 20:4
This verse has come up in a lot of my conversations with friends and family. What I've learned is that doing the "Christian" things doesn't guarantee that I'll get what I want. I believe that this verse tells Christians that when we align ourselves with God and his word, he will take his desires for our lives and make them our own.
I never really felt the need to tell God what I want and ask for it because I know that He already knows my heart. What's the point of telling someone something they already know? Telling God my desires and needs humbles myself and shows me that I still need to seek him and tell him whats going on in my life.
I used to always pray "But Lord, only if it's your will." This isn't a bad thing at all, but I realized that I just needed to be bold in asking God for some things. Of course, I want to live out his will for my life, but praying and asking for the impossible is a big leap of faith. Ask expecting Him to show up in a mighty way!
Originally posted to MyMadsLife on March 18, 2020.
